Lent time

OK–so I am not Catholic but I do consider myself a reflective person and Lent gives me the opportunity to do that.  The basis behind Lent for me is to sacrifice in remembrance as I have been sacrificed for.  I choose to remove myself from FB for Lent.  Not that I am a avid FB’er but I do find myself checking up on things and people quite a bit just to be doing something!  So I have cut that out.  My goal and hope for this process is to come out of Lent better centered and hopefully focused like I have been in the past.  RIght now I am in a bit of a self-imposed flux.  I have found that my lack of focus is starting to carry over into my mothering–losing my patience and my desire for closeness with my children–NOT GOOD.  I have to maintian and nuture this now so that it has a foundation.  In school I am finding that my desire to finish and get things done timely is harder and harder!!  NOt good especially since I am so close!  Internally I am feeling like I am second guessing myself and needs too much!  I want to get back to enjoying stuff depsite the other junk!

I know that I will get there–will just take time!